Feeling BLARGH the past few days, so I thought I’d take my arty friend, Melisa, at Toad in a Boat, up on her invitation to join her in the 29 Faces in 29 Days project. I will do a face every day, starting February 1st, and post it here. I really like doing faces, and this actually sounds fun.
Monthly Archives: January 2012
No, not the estro-fest television show, but the one out my window. You’d think this would be celebrating it, but it’s not. I know, here’s where you pull out the smallest violin player in the world to play, “Oh, I feel sorry for you,” but we moved here in October of last year and I don’t want to live here anymore. I LOVE the ocean. And I feel twisted having a view like that and wanting nothing but to move out. But we all need more than just a view, and I feel it more every day, so I made this journal page about it. You can see words painted in clouds if you really, really look (and especially if you look at where I’ve cropped the page to show them.)
The painting is acrylic in my Book of Days journal (matting added by Picasa for effect):
And here is the wispy wording:
“A beachfront house does not a home make.” Yes, pull out the tissues.
So as you know if you’ve read my blog, I had taken the word FEARLESS as my word for the year. But I found that rather than empowering me, it somehow made me fearFUL. And last night I hit a wall that I couldn’t get through on my own. My writer partner told me about a poem she felt would help, and it gave me the way through to my new word, COURAGE. I realized that in taking FEARLESS as my word, I had inadvertently denied the part of myself that was, indeed, quite fearful. I was telling myself I had to be fear-less. I had to have no fear. And myself was feeling very bad that she couldn’t live up to that.
My new word, COURAGE, which is about feeling the fear and doing it anyway, empowers me, rather than denying part of me. The poem is featured in my journal.
Confession: I’m a participant in a year-long, make art journal pages every day project called, “The Book of Days.” The intention is to use an altered book to do a mixed media page for each day of your life. The FEARLESS journal cover is the book for that project. And there are no finished spreads in there except for one very failed attempt at following the prompt, “Surrender.” After two tries and hours of work, the page ended up making me look like a serial killer, and that ain’t an exagerration. So I won’t be showing it here. I will be redoing that page. A third time.
Mixed media collage is brand-spanking-new to me as a way of doing art, and I’m not good at it yet. And it does not come easily or naturally. So to make a long story short, I haven’t done my pages in this book. I’ve done art every day, but not in this book. I’ve been doing art that comes more naturally to me but not pushing myself beyond that. In fact, I’ve been working on the inside cover since I joined a couple of weeks ago, and I hated it until last night, when my partner gave me the poem. I finally finished it. And now I love it. My intention is that it will give me courage to do the pages in my book, even though it’s all new to me and sometimes I literally become paralyzed with fear.
Okay, so ’nuff talkin’, here’s the art:
Once I posted that to the group, another artist there gave me a link to an amazing page: Ordinary Courage. I went there and read the first page with another, extremely powerful definition of COURAGE and got chills. It is sooooooo prescient in my life right now. I am going to do a page on it for sure, on the page right after that cover, so I just run into all kinds of courage whenever I open the book. I anticipate doing many spreads exploring this word.
I just found this amazing face-drawing tutorial on youtube.
You seriously won’t believe it. 🙂
Today is a very powerful day for me. I took a chance and posted something I was fearful of sharing due to the negative response I thought I might get. Instead, I have found new friends and so much support and outpouring of personal truth as a result of it. I have decided to commemorate today with a symbol.
I am a born shaman and was talking with another shaman about our shaman names, and she showed me a symbol she carves on her tools, and I thought I would like to do something like that. With what happened today, I thought it was a good day to do it. I used a fine point ballpoint pen, dollar store craft foam, a watercolor pencil, and the paper in my Canson journal. Incidentally, the paper in the Canson does not erase well. Now we all know.
So, anyway, here is my result:
My shaman name is Earth Hands, by the way.
I think I will work up a little free tutorial on how to do this, since it’s so simple and shows such wonderful results, and post it over on artjournaling.ning.com in the workshop group!
I had better walk my talk here! Last month I saw a journal entry that said, “You are meant to be seen.” It just hit me. It made me brave. So I picked up a pen and started to draw my own portrait. I did it freehand, no underdrawing, expressive line as close to real life, including the setting, as I could get it. The shading is done with watercolor pencil. She makes me very happy.