Here she is. I’m not happy with her, and it’s making me sad. When something doesn’t turn out right, I just go into this fear-place that now it will all suck. Then I don’t make another mark, then it just snowballs. And of course, I didn’t want to post this. But Shan said I should, and I should share how I was feeling, so here I am. She also says I have to go put a mark on paper after I’m done, so I’ll do that, too.
I tried working big with the continuous line and watercolor, and I learned some stuff. First, I couldn’t get the spontaneity of line with a Sharpie on the Stonehenge (11×14 inches), so I think it’s boring and stilted. Too careful and tight. Then I went to add the watercolor, but on a surface this big, I couldn’t get enough paint and water down at once in order to get the lovely, liquid-y effect I love so much with watercolor. It’s ‘wet, dab paint, brush it on in a few strokes, wet, dab, brush…’ and it leaves it flat and boring. And I didn’t like the color palette I chose, and I’m tired of all my watercolors being in the cool family. (I have ordered another set of the basics.) I tried to save it with some Conte crayon and a bit of Portfolio oil pastels, but she just got flatter. I will very likely cut this up and use it as collage fodder.
Okay, so here she is, and it is what it is: